I remember the most random things from my childhood. Most of them are not anything significant so I don't know why these moments have stuck with me. And when I try to recall them, all these little snippets of my life pass through my head like a fast forwarded video.
For instance, I remember a lot of things from the day my grandfather passed away. It was 10 years ago so I was around 7 or 8 years old back then.
My cousins and I were fooling around in the car on our way back from school. We didn't know what had happened until we actually got home.
The shirt I wore that day: it was a dull lime green colour with a little pattern shaped like a sun in the middle. I think I remember it because I felt like I should be wearing white like everyone else, since it was a funeral.
Sitting in my parents' room with some of my siblings and cousins. I was flipping through a KFC calendar, trying to distract myself.
I also remember seeing him for the last time.
Then there are those moments which I'm not sure whether they actually happened or if I was just dreaming. Like once I was travelling by bus overnight. We were on the highway and I woke up to look out the window and see where we were.
I looked up and gosh... I was mesmerised. It was dark, obviously, but the sky was lit up by a cluster of little dotted stars. And there were SO MANY of them. I had never seen something like that and I even remember taking out my glasses from my bag to look at it more clearly.
It was just so beautiful. And maybe that's why I think I might have dreamt it. I'm pretty certain it actually happened but I can't be sure since I was half asleep and I don't have any proof. I wish I had taken a photo of it or at least woken my sister up (who was sleeping in the seat beside me) to share it with her so I would have some sort of evidence that it was real. But I didn't and all I have is the memory of that scenery. I don't think I'll ever forget it. Honestly I'm not even exaggerating, it was the most magnificent thing I have ever seen.
P.S. I love pandas.
A long time ago, I wrote a post called The Book That Changed My Life. I talked about the book Wintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson. And guess what? The author read it!
Receiving this message on Tumblr totally made my day: